My master graduation

This was my 2nd time participated to my graduation, it's slightly different from my bachelor's one, but the moment of thoughts were pretty much the same.
First of all, I have to thank my parents who are supporting me always for my today's acheivement. Seondly, I would wanna thank my friends and classmates that help me a lot at my studies and study's life. I would be able to make it without any backups from you guys. Thirdly, I need to thank god which always appointed someone to be with me when I needed or in troubles. I won't be able to survive if you guys are not around. Finally, thanks to all of my friends who came to my graduation tonight. It means a lot to me.... I appreciate the friendship between us and I would never forget you guys... Muaks.....

The video which shown during the ceremony was really touched.It highlights your uni's life from the day you received your offer letter till you graduation ceremony. All the places you had been hang around at during your uni's life; the people and friends you met; and the time you struggled with your exams. Finally, all the hardworks had been valued, I'm ready to get out from school to serve my community!! I gonna miss curtin uni a lot, as well as my fellow mates and lecturers.

The ceremony was ended with a song "time to say goodbye" and fireworks. It's time to say good bye to uni... Such a hard feeling today...

wormy upsets me

I don't have much appetite for the past few days. Tummy was upset for long and finally i start to have some appetite on "fruits" today.

I made a special source for my bell fruit dip by adding sugar, soya source, black soya source and cut chili. Just before i dip my fruit with my special source, i saw there are tinny worm worming on my fruit. The sudden scene had put off my appetite and brought up my anger.

I feel so fussy and grumpy because i was suppose to enjoy my fruit but at the end, the worms had ruined my mood. It was so disgusting that the worms are worming on my fruit. My tummy upset again...

Do you Believe?

I'm a "princess" back home. I don't need to clean my house, do my laundy, cook my own meals, and even iron and fold my own shirt. I'm well served for my entire life and things start to change when i came to Australia.

I need to pick up all these when i start living by myself, without mummy and daddy (i don't have a nanny at home and still, i live like a "princess"). I did some housework when i was staying at the hostel of course but just not too often because I only do it when i feel like doing it. I don't go for laundry unless i'm out of clothes and undies. I don't even iron my own suit if there is not party ahead. So..That's me!!

But things change when i moved to my auntie place. I hang out the shirt for her after she did the wash; I cook for them when auntie is not around; I iron their clothes when i have free time (instead of watching movie, i did all these); I clean and tidy the house for the coming CNY. That is kinda weird for me because i never did this back home and i do these today just for????

I've been wondering this for long. Am i doing this to please my auntie and uncle? Or just to get their heart before i get their son? It looks like a perfect plan thought,in fact, it wasn't a plan!!! I do this because i like to see their happy faces!! I feel great when i able to feed them with food when they're starving; I feel good when they get home and found out the clothes are ironed; I feel happy because i can contribute a little to this family and make everyone happy.

I'm doing this because i feel happy. Can you believe i'm doing these? a maid job for a "princess"?

Don't ask that again...alright?

Please don't ask me "Are you ok?" again... Because the standard answer i will give is "No! Am i seems to be ok?"

I'm seriously not OK. I'm seriously sick. I feel like crying every night;feel like want to get drunk;feel like hurting myself so badly. So... After all these, do you still think i'm ok?

I went to a party today. But guess what? I didn't enjoy there.. and eventually, i went back earlier. I don't get a point by staying there because i'm bored and heart broken. But i dunno why.

I know i behave differently these few days, i don't even get an answer for that. So please don't ask me "are you alright?" When you know i'm certainly NOT!