Use what you're gifted wisely

I called you yesterday when I was in the shopping mall,
To remind you that we still have a "date".

I knew you're going to further study in UK the end of the month,
I just wish that I can meet you up and say "good bye" before you leave...
And nevertheless, a gift that I wanna pass it to you.

I still remember the day that I met you in my life:
You've a shy boy which didn't talk much.
I can see that thoughts were running across your mind, but you had chosen to remain silence.
I was a shy girl at that time,
which I wish to talk to you and know you better.
Unfortunately, I don't know how to approach you further.

Few years time, you had changed a lot.
You're now a charming talkative person.
I can see from you, you're a gifted potential sales person.
The bright shine star that going to be discovered in the "Sales" Industry.
You must have no idea the way you expressed your thoughts and approached others,
You can make someone to fall for you, unintentionally.

You're such a person who capable of:
Getting the bird on the tree to fly to you,
to peel off its fur for you,
and climb back the tree as you wished.

Not much young girl can resist themselves from you
And I believe what I wrote here
it's worth you a credit.

But be aware in mind,
Use what you're gifted wisely..
You'll be just as successful as I thought.

Sammy... Good job.

I feel I'm such a useless & careless person

Feeling kinda helpless today....
Some kind of hopeless feeling towards myself...
I wonder why
I made such silly mistakes?
Or perhaps I should just say:
"Why I'm such a careless person?"

My job requires me to be "careful" on certain areas...
And I did "pay" extra attention on those particulars that needs to be "correct" at the first place..
But somehow, errors slipped under my eyes
I have no way to defend what I have made
But to try my best
not to repeat this mistake in the near future

Yet,
Still carry lots of guilt with me...
I feel I'm just some kind of incapable person for my manager


I was great when I was with my ex company...
I was Brilliant, Excellent, and I earned my respects from the others
My ex HOD, Division & Sector Head do likes me because of my capability...
I wasn't such a "useless" person before.....

I wonder...
Why I'm such a useless person in my current work....

Hope tomorrow gets better than...
*Finger Cross*

Shut myself from People

I knew a friend recently in my new joined office. His name is Albert Dominic Sebastian.
I have no idea how can an Indian would be given such a western name until I found out that he is a Roman Catholic.

I have no much idea about this person before I met him in personal, I though he is a white guy from Europe/Oceanic but at the end, he is just a Malaysia-Indian.
I have no idea how we get to so close, perhaps it's all about god's direction.

He is such a lovely cute person, especially when he gave me some advise about relationship today:
He wants me to consider someone good, do not always reject my options, etc etc.
He was funny while he was giving his "lecture" to me like a father... you need to get married at what age, and bla bla bla bla...

I was replying in such a "careless" manner but on the other hand, I did take in his advise seriously. I wish to tell him what I had been through, but the hesitation stop me from that.

It's hard to tell why I had shut myself out from people...
It just when you've tore off into pieces... It's hard to glue it back in perfect, just like it wasn't broken before.
Wound takes time to heal, but the scar will remind what you have been through.

Japan Earthquake + Tsunami

Japan had a massive earthquake and tsunami on 11-Mar. It is the most terrible earthquake + Tsunami i ever knew in my life. Japan government had upgraded the earthquake degree from 8.9 to 9.0, it's even worst than the Tsunami happen in Indonesia 5 years ago.

The earthquake + Tsunami are still not the worst case for Japan yet, but the Radiation leakage that happen at the Nuclear Plant. Now, the radiation has even spread to Tokyo. Everyone in the world, especially the countries beside Japan, are all in the panic of radiation out spread.

Unfortunately, i'm working in Sony. You can never imagine how worst the Japan's condition had affected us. Some of the Japan plant was destroy, especially the plant at ShenDai. Our warehouse in Odaiba was partially damage as well. All the cargoes that loaded in Tokyo were unable to transport to the factory due to the lack of fuel + workers.
You can never understand how bad the situation is, unless you're working in Japan company. You feel the pain so real.

However, we all, including the Japanese, we still need hope to get live on. We hope Japan can rework on the mess very soon.
Hopefully all the mess can be rearrange/restore back to normal in a very near future.

God bless for those who had scarified themselves in this natural disaster, please give strength who manage to survive from these.

Autumn 'sHeart

Out of the 4 Seasons, my best choice is still Autumn. Although i love the cooling winter with my jumper, Autumn has mean more to me.

I love the blue feeling that Autumn gives me. I love watching the leaves dropping from the trees; I even love to lean against the window watching the rain drops from the roof top. I love the color theme of the Autumn, it's such a kind of brownish orange color which sometimes can just express how i feel to the world. That kind of emo and sorrows about life being and relationship, Autumn fits for the perfect description.

And guess what, i found someone who loves Autumn as much as i do...

Will we get to share more further in future? *I hope so... *

Aftershocked (TangShan Earthquake)

唐山大地震 (Aftershocked/ TangShan Earthquake)

A movie directed by 冯小刚 from China regarding the most serious earthquake ever happen in the world in 1976, 28 of July, 3.42am.

More than 30 million people were death in this incidents. It is an non erasable memories for all the people that had survived from that/who have witnessed this natural disasters.

The movie begins with a twin bro & sis were living happily with their parents in TangShan. Before the earthquakes, most of the people saw there are many dragonflies that fly across the street, which that never happen before. At the same day midnight, the earthquake has happen. The father of the twin bro-sis are scarified when he tried to get into the building to safe his children. Both the bro-sis were trapped under a concrete and waiting for rescue.

Here comes the tough decision for the mother. Both the bro-sis were trapped under the same concrete and rescue team was unable to save them both. Mum has to make a choice to choose either the boy or the girl. At the end, she has chosen to save the boy. The girl heard exactly what the mother said. Her heart was so broken after that.

At the end, she was survived in a miracle. But the decision made by her mum was just affected so much of her life. It changes her personality from a hippy to a person who resist to communicate. After the earthquake, she was adopted by a soldier family. She can't forgot what her mum did to her although she was still young at that time.

She told nothing about this incidents to her step father and mother. This makes her step father and mother though that she might have a post-traumatic symptoms, which cause her memories lost about all before and during the earthquake.

But one day, in a very rare occasion, he told her step father that, she did not mention a word regarding this to them is not because she had forgotten all her past. The main reason is because she can't forget what had happen.

For those who hasn't watch this movie, i recommended this so much to all of you guys. It's a very touching movie and i believe, after watching this movie, you'll know how blissful you're right now. As what the mum quoted in the movie "you'll never know what you lost until you lost them. that so call a lost"

Welcome 2011

I was away from home for the past few year during the new year. I was traveling around with friends and also stuck in Australia during my Uni time.

This is the 1st year i'm back again, celebrating new year with my family. Since dunno when, i started to hang out more with friends than my parents. I use to feel that, i'm more close than my parents than my friends because they understand what i'm trying to do and say. Besides, from the way we communicate, we're under the same channel.

But when days go by, i start to have a feeling that i need to spend more time with my parents. May be because when i saw them getting older, i have a fear of losing them. It seems like i'm having a race with the death rep, i wish i have another 30 more years to be with them before the track has come to the end.

Nothing much special for me this year, no gathering, no fireworks seeing. Just the 3 of us, have a meal and watched movie at home together. Enjoy the time being together, i bet this is the best i can show my appreciation towards them.

May happiness will always be with them. Health and Wealth come after next.

Happy New Year, Welcome 2011